I wrote a great blog post.
Then, it deleted. I was already struggling for something to share and when I did finally get something out, it was great. Then it was gone. So it goes in life. The more I attempt to control an outcome, the more displeased I am with it. It's the perfect lesson of what I wanted to share here anyway. When I witnessed my entire post gone, my body filled with frustration and disgust. Then I remembered. All of life is an adventure if we let it. And, so I let go. I released all of the words drafted in the previous post and put my fingers to the keyboard curious as to what wanted to be shared instead. My cross country hug journey was an obvious, fun adventure. The writing of it, not so much. It's felt like a hard struggle for this past year. But, if I get curious and choose to see it differently; letting go of the expectations, what I find is: Spiritual growth A practice of discovering my writing voice A release of so many limiting beliefs Pride in what I am accomplishing What I find is that perhaps writing this book has been one of the greatest adventures of my life to date. How much fun could it be if I continued to write from the space of adventure rather than the space of expectation and control? Something inside me is raging right now, saying no - this is hard. You can't just shift gears and all of a sudden find it to be easy and fun. But... what if I don't expect the change to happen right away. What if I allow curiosity to lead me down a path of more ease and fun with no demands? I don't know what will happen but I do know that even just typing that out now I feel an expansion within my body that allows me to hope that it can be different.
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AuthorMelinda Lee is a mom of two adolescent boys, a devout student of all things spiritual, a recovering perfectionist, and immensely fascinated with achieving the unachievable. Currently writing a memoir about hugging strangers. Archives
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